Tuesday, 23 August 2011

Getting Crafty with the Casts

So for the last few days being on bedrest has gotten me so bored and I needed something to do, so I decided to join the DIY Nation! . Plus, yesterday I got to get my bandages changed from surgery and the took away my pink bandages and gave me ugly brown ones and that is just no good for Becca

Between the boredom and the ugliness, something had to give. So I made cover-ups ;)

1. First, I found some old fabric and cut it into a long strip about as wide as an ace bandage. I wrapped that around my bandages so they were completely covered.

2. I found some lace ribbon and wrapped it around the same way.

3. At the ends of the fabric and ribbon I sewed some old buttons on to keep them from falling off, plus it added a cute touch. I put a couple extra buttons on in places I liked and TA-Da!!! easy as that. Now I have cute casts for the time being. Much better :)

Saturday, 20 August 2011

Day after Surgery

So my surgery went really well yesterday. My bones are all put in the right place and yup. To do the surgery they put all this numbing stuff in my feet (like an epidural or at the dentist) and I still can't feel my feet a day later. Man! they must have packed that stuff in! So I'm not in any pain. Just a little loopy from pain meds and super bored. Plus my feet feel like they've fallen asleep and I can't get them back.

Here's some pictures from the hospital. It was super funny cuz I was the only one having surgery that day in the hospital I went to. It's like I had the whole place all to myself. empty and kinda wierd.

Haha so I don't remember these pictures being taken at all. My mom said I was super super funny though like all I wanted was for her to take pictures and that I was so so so hyper. They couldn't get me to stop excitedly rambling on like a little kid. (i look kinda awful in these by the way.)

 She also said that I wouldn't stop talking about how cool my shoes were because they were so pretty and pink and not gigantic like some that I've seen. Man I wish I could have seen myself.
 Another funny thing is that when I finally came back to my senses, they had brought me all this apple juice. I vaguely remember being so happy about it and kept asking the nurse to bring more in. I don't even really like apple juice! idk. So I guess those are the stories of me coming out of anesthesia. All the nurses were certainly entertained.

Since then I've just been at home in bed, finding ways to entertain myself. I wish my house was more open because then I could play on my wheelchair. It just so happens that my house is the most terrible house for a wheelchair on the planet. I can't go anywhere.

Here's a picture I drew yesterday while I was bored on my disney.com thing. It is a request from a girl named Narnia-Lover who wanted me to create a princess just for her. I love the way it turned out, it looks way better than I thought it would. I hope it makes her happy :)  I had another request to draw rapunzel's tower from tangled, so I guess that's what I'll be working on today! Exciting stuff.

Also a big thanks to Sarah Orgill, who brought me treats and a coloring book late last night!! It made my day!  You're so sweet! I love it when visitors come! It makes me feel like I have friends lol.

Plus I got a letter from my Logan this morning, who stll has no idea about the surgery :( but that sure made me happy anyways. He's always there just when I need him..

Monday, 15 August 2011

Medical Adventures

So today was a little crazy and a bit scary as far as my health goes... Here's the story...

 Short Version:  ER at 3 in the morning because my cornea is being eaten away from lack of oxygen, then go to work like crazy, get phone call from doctor about having an appointmment to set up surgery, I'm thinking said surgery won't be until October, doctor tells me that he will be cutting apart and rearranging my bones in 3 days! AHHHH!!  

Long version:   Well my eye had been bugging me all Sunday, and by night fall, it was getting swollen and watery. I figured it was just my contact, so I took it out and went to bed. I couldn't sleep at all! every time I moved my eyes or anything I felt like there was a little person in my eye socket trying to pop my eye open. When I looked into light it was like pouring acid into the inside of my eye. After hours of trying to convice myself that it was nothing and still burning with pain, I decided that it really was something. I looked in the mirror and my eye was GIGANTIC! So I asked to be taken to the ER. The doctor looked in my eyeball and saw all these dots where my cornea had been disintegrated, almost like somebody had taken a sheet of sand paper to my eye. It could have been my contacts not letting through oxygen into my eyes. My doctor said it should only take around two days to heal. That was lucky, I was really scared I was going blind. Anyways two hours and some eye drops later, I was finally done, only to realize work was in an hour and I hadn't slept a wink all night. 

I go to work in my hospital bracelet and all and recieve a phone call. It is my podiatrist telling me that they had an appointment that I could come into that day because of a cancellation. I was so thrilled because I have these terrible bunions (most ugliest name in the world btw) that are always hurting me. I couldn't wait to finally get in to see the doctor to set up surgery for sometime soon. So I get off work early and off to another doctor I go. I'm thinking, "I hope I can get this in the next few months before the ice comes, because I don't want to deal with crutches and wheelchairs in the snow."

 I was hoping he had an appointment as early as September or October. I get X-rays and sure enough I definitely need surgery. He explains to me the procedure and all that it entails. I nod my head. He asks what my time frame is, I told him that as soon as I can get in...hopefully before there's snow on the ground. His reply... "Great, well I think we'll have the surgery this Friday, does that sound ok to you? That way, you'll have a whole week without school to recover a bit" 

My expression must have been priceless. My eyes got so wide and my mouth hung open to the floor, then I just laughed because I honestly thought he was joking. When he looked at me seriously I didn't know what to say except "ok." So there you go... I'm going into surgery friday and I'm very very nervous. Here's what will be done...

First.. they will shave off the part of my bone that sticks out the most. The top part of my Big Toe Metatarsal bone will be completely sliced off. Then it will be placed back on the bone but moved over a few degrees so it no longer sticks out so much. THEN they will place a long screw through the new puzzle pieced bones to hold them together. There is also a bone spur that is on one of my feet that he will just chop off while he's at it. Then they sew me back up and do the exact same procedure on my other foot! Maybe it's just me, but this sounds a bit like an insanely morbid horror movie. My doctor put it in much nicer terms than I did, but still....

Anyways, after the surgery here is how my recovery will go... One full week in a wheelchair, then another couple weeks on crutches, then a week on walking boots (haha 2 walking boots?! I am going to look like a duck waddling around lol. It will be great.) then I should be able to go back to sneakers. After about a month, I should be back to walking like a normal human being. He promises this will make life much less painful in the long run. I am excited for that part. I may actually be able to wear high heels and not die. So yeah. There is my story in case you were wondering. 

I'm taking volunteers to help me move back into my third floor apartment next week, since it seems I will be a gimp. Also if you don't want to move all my junk (I don't blame you) visitors are always welcome, especially if you like lounging around watching Friends, or Romantic Movies. :) 

This will definitely be an adventure! I am going to find some ways to make this exciting and fun! Even if it is making my mom record me while I'm on narcotics and watching the tapes later lol or trying to learn tricks on a wheel chair. This will be great. I only wish Logan knew this was all going on so he could send me good loving vibes and prayers from Canada. I guess he'll be in a shock next Monday when I tell him. He knows absolutely nothing. 

Well there you go. Now you know about my new cool medical procedures. Just another few to add to my collection :) 

- Becca Soup 

Here's some pics to show you an idea of what it will be like..

First: Here is a Before and After shot of a surgery very similar to mine....

and Second!!! Look! DUckie Feet!! told you I'll look like a duck. haha. This will be me in a few days. haha.

Sunday, 14 August 2011

A few picture updates - Requested by Logan.

Alright so Logan asked a few questions and wanted me to post some pictures.
 And in case that you aren't Logan, feel free to read and enjoy. The reason I post these on my blog is because my email does wierd things when I try to put pictures into my emails. I guess this can be an update to all my blog readers too!! As requested...here you are!

First of all... the answer is YES! I do still keep your calendar. Here it is! Look how far you've come! Your on day 171, which means only 559 days left! In only 8 days I can move from the red part of the Canadian flag colors to the white part! YAY! I made the lines for the colors to be at six months. So in a year I'll be back in the red for the last six months. Idk this thing make me happy. I make sure that each day when I mark off the day to make a little promise to myself that I will wait for you that day. Just taking it one day at a time. 

Ok... so this is to show you two things. A) some of the weight that I've lost. idk, it's not a huge difference, but I'm getting there. and b) how long and blonde my hair is getting! it's only a few inches shorter than my extensions I sometimes wear. haha you like my skirt?? I've had it since the beginning of 8th grade lol.

So the next three pictures are of my box of letters that I keep. There is around 24 letters, you've never missed a week! Some are kinda hidden in the bottom so you can't see them. Haha I got a little carried away with these pictures because I just love the garden I have outside of my window and my lace curtains, it just looked so pretty I couldn't resist.

 Oh... here's the ring you sent me!!!!! Like it? lol I love it your so cute and kinda funny too.
 Here is me. Yeah... don't ask why my head is tilted like that. I have no clue. But you can see how skinny my legs have gotten. Those are my new jeans that I love!

Yeah. and here is the picture of you that I love and use for the wallpaper on my computer. It always making me happy.

So yup there ya go! as for the wedding plan pictures you asked for... well I'll send those in the mail. I don't feel like giving away all my secret amazing plans away to all my blog readers and the public quite yet lol.

Well there ya go!
Love ya log.

Monday, 8 August 2011

a cute quote from my boy. I love him oh so much.

"i am also always thinking about you not a hour goes by that i don't say a pray in my heart that you'll be happy and safe i always feel like your around me helping me bec thank you for that i love you so much i always think about you and i alwasy miss you and will alwasy be here for you when you need someone to talk too
 i love you too you always bring hope into my life i wouldn't be able to make it out here without you  so i love you and i'll talk to you next week thanks for being you
love logan :)"

my favorite is the last part.. "thanks for being you" he certainly knows how to treat a girl. :) 

I think I have the cutest boyfriend in the world. lots of smiles for today. 

Monday, 1 August 2011

Change of Heart...

Haha this is new...posting two days in a row.

Anyway the reason for this post is because I feel like I need to be a better person in my life, so I'm deciding to change and writing this down will hold me accountable, and anybody who reads this can too.

I love lists and here are just a few things I think I want to improve on in the next little bit...

1. I'm really sorry for being selfish. There are people in the world who I've most likely neglected because I get wrapped up in my own world instead of taking care of my friends and family that I care about.

2. I need to be more open. This one is going to be tough because I'm really a shy person, but I want to meet people and learn from them and grow, so I guess I'll have to try.

3. I want to immerse my life with charity. This goes along with number one I guess. I am so so so SO blessed to live in this world and to have the things that I have, there is always something to share with less fortunate.

4. I spend all my free time practicing and developing talents, yet not once in the last few years have I shared any of them (beside a few blog post with design works.) I bet very few of my friends know that I paint, and play the guitar and write songs and poetry. It's time  come out of the box. Who knows maybe I'll inspire someone (most likely not though lol)

5. I want to be a better listener and more importantly a better friend. Sorry to the freinds I've let down in the past.

6. I hope to fill my life with the gospel, and read my scriptures and learn them front and back. Maybe then I can spread the gospel and bring joy to people.

7. I need to smile more and keep my head up. This one comes directly out of almost every letter that Logan writes to me. He really does care about me and wants me to act happier, and so I'm following his wishes.

8. Stop being so fearful of the future. The future will comes when it comes, and if I'm always reaching toward my goal, it will hopefully be a bright and beautiful future. As for now... I want to be someone who doesn't just wait for storms to pass, but one who runs out and dances in the rain.

9.There is nothing greater in this life than our families. I want to work on strengthening my relationship and my love for both my present family and working so I can have that with my future family.

10. Lastly, I want to live life to the fullest, with a brightness of hope and the Light of Christ streaming through my veins and shining from my eyes. Nothing else will be more rewarding.

Well I hope to fulfill these goals in the next little bit of time and always remember who I am and always be trying to improve. The inspiration for this change was actually something that Logan sent me in the mail. I've kept it with me where ever I go, and recently taped it into the front of my Preach My Gospel Manual that I've been reading. It's nothing profound, but it is a simple example to me of how great my best friend is and how strengthening the power of Christ in our life is.This program is one of my most precious possessions, and an example to all.

It was a program from a man named Nick Zhang's baptism. Logan wrote that he would have never gone on a mission without my inspiration, and this guy may have never received the gospel. Logan even picked my favorite song to sing as the opening hymn. I can't believe he would do that for me. He could't be sweeter.

I think Logan would have gone on a mission anyways, that's not the point, he's an amazing young man. but I think it made me realize that I can make an impact on lives around me, we both can, and I want to be a good impact, like the kind of impact that Logan is on people. So that is why I am making this change.

(I hope that all made sense. I'm not so good with the words.)